I realized. . .
My 4th year high graduation is not that bad. I mean, yeah, it's horrid. Just like when I wrote a few rhymes for it and just be thrown and then, rush us out and make us all look silly. But hey, not all is bad. I mean, seeing my best friends rise to get their honor and have speech. Have this cool speaker (even if the fuse exploded that cut off the current) that had this cool story. Good thing, I was in front to hear it.Somehow, I saw a little fate of mine in him. Well, just when I thought I was the "most promising" (but probably the bitterest of all students), listening to mister, he was also called the same you're-not-on-top-but-hey award. He graduated like that and entered UPD and well, looking so happy now. "I'll be happy too," I said. "I'll be better."
Okay, maybe, that's why it's called most promising.
By the way, sorry for all-of-a-sudden have an english post. I got a bit hooked up with the percy jackson series and BOOM! Im really into it.
Speaking of the series, well, not only did the greek myth caught my interest but the many life-and-death events. Jumping off (or almost) a cliff caught my attention. I sort of can relate what happened to the 1st semester of my 2nd year (which is really the main point of this blog). Yeah, I said it. The difference is that, I need to hold on even with the right hand pinky is the only part of me left that holds. People (not really) in the story can just jump off a cliff and somewhere in the end, be alive again.(Haha! I told you, when I'm reading a story book, I am torn between reality and fantasy.) But seriously, just now, when I had my sembreak, I felt like a balikbayan to my own hometown. It's like I have not been around a long time. My old friends? It felt like years apart from them and same goes to my past years' hobbies and addictions. I thought I won't have to waste time for a while since I made a step back last 2nd sem after failing a subject. I don't want it to happen again. . . or much sooner, at least.
My sem started well. It was a bit scared having an all-major sem but I have friends to be with. I got this hardcore subject that some unfortunate ones are not able to make it through. I even made a song for it, though, it's unfinished. Its title is "At the Peak." I said, I will only finish it if I fail. But after I knew I pass it (the hard way i tell you) I lost the song. I'll try to look for it and show it to you someday, I guess. Other subjects were also tough. It's the first sem I bought a book and read a lot of it. I also borrow books and all. I can say I became better, after all. Though sometimes, I can't avoid some bad habits.
Org life? Well, I've dedicated most of my time to CKT. It's the nearest there is. Also a bit with Angkan. We revived this dormant Cavite organization and it's on its way to the world. Love life? It's always the same. I don't have one. Yeah, I got a crush on one of the professors but just for fun. That also goes with people I claim as "Crush of the Day." That might be the reason why I got agitated when rumors spread that I like a person. I don't like it that way. Yeah, there is a time I got my eye on him but only for observation. I disproved my interest. And well, getting teased to him is really annoying. Well, not only getting teased. I don't know why but being around him as well felt really awkward and wrong. I hate it. Well, just don't remind me of it. Ugh! Actually, not only to him I am teased. But also, to my friend's guy. Well, it was last summer that it started when I spoke of him because I have no choice and I didn't realize people took it a bit too far. It is not as much irritating but I am just getting shy to my friend. It's not supposed to be that way. Don't ask me anymore. You already know. I don't like anyone now. If i did, you all know who he is. It's just the same person all along. It's also not right! Haha, i don't want to think about it, next topic. Yeah! I had my street dance class that boosts my hidden desire, my long lost frustration, to dance. I'm not really not good at it and I'm still working on it but I got more confidence. I said that before I turn 18, I must learn even a bit of dancing. And there I was.
Well, I've been a fool the whole time. But guess what, I was a happy fool. All that matters is that I did well in the end. All payed back well. I passed all subjects (almost). I got new skills. I'm telling you, if I've been like these even before college, I've gone a mile. But it don't work that way. I guess, it's a different thing. Well, all I can say is, this sem is such a breakthrough for me. It made me see a lot of my dreams clearer and nearer and I hope I've not mistaken. I mean, signs say I must move forward and so I have no reason to go back or fall apart. I don't know what tomorrow brings me. All I know, it's waiting to be revealed.
