"It's a damn cold night, trying to figure out this life. Won't you take me by the hand, take me somewhere new, I don't know who you are but I'm.....I'm with you." -I'm with you, Avril Lavigne
That is exactly how I felt when I first met him. Well, I don't consider him as a crush nor consider me being in love. Shall we define the feeling as "inspiration" to where it is the nearest? Now, shall I proceed to the details?
Once, there was a young girl but not little for her age, to be specific, she was nine years old. She was to enter a new school on fifth grade, a very different school from what she had used to. And so, the first day came and she finally met a set of new faces. The teachers and the administrators of the school was welcoming and warm. How about the classmates? They had a first bad impression of her. She was not accepted and even blamed for being bossy, selfish, ill-mannered and perhaps all of the negative traits that could be imagined. She thought it was the worst days of her life as she compared it with that"damn cold night."
Until one afternoon, she went down the stairs and a 6th grader greeted the girl and asked for her name. She said "Katrina" and from then on, they became friends for every afternoon they meet. The boy didn't know that she cheers up the girl in the middle of her nightmares. All he did was smile and greet and talk to her cheerfully. That is why there is no doubt that the girl was "inspired" by that boy.
Time passed, the girl had the strength to prove the people whom she really is and whom she was not. She was finally accepted step by step and not even one knows how. She kept it to herself as it grows inside.
Well, she told herself that she wants to be like the boy. She wanted to help others by cheering them up and letting them know she will be a friend to them. Actually, the boy himself, even if she considered him a friend, she doesn't know much about him. In short, he was a "stranger" to her.
Well, more time passed and the girl learned more about the boy. He was not so famous among the girls but he was a consistent 1st honor. She also noticed his amazing performing talent and interest in sports. And she still liked him when she reached 6th grade and the boy being the valedictorian of their batch. Since then, they became busy with other stuffs so they failed to communicate but the feeling stayed and still no one knows, not even her own best friends. Well, there may be flaws to other people but she was teased to another person and covered her emotions.
And so, the graduation of the girl was a day before a program called "Celebrate Writing." It ended early but she was not able to go home early as she wait for her fetcher. Actually, there were two who were left, the girl and the boy. They shared moments together and the only difference was to the boy, it's nothing and to the girl, it's something. Then, he was fetched first saying "see you next year?" The girl took a deep breath and said, "I won't be studying here anymore" He blinked and respond with "I see." It was a short conversation and it was the last time she talked to him personally.
The girl graduated the next day and she passed for the school and so she would be away but she still chatted with him rarely about nonsense things that make sense to her. Then, the feeling depleted, it won't do any good. She let time pass but still had the boy as an inspiration but not as much as before. Now, the girl was known to be me, counting the days she doesn't want to count. She knew that the graduation day of the 4th year batch of her school is the same day as the boy's graduation. As usual, he was an unbeatable valedictorian. She thought of the possibilities because even a few, she still cares for the boy and she's afraid they'll never meet again afterwards. She knew herself that she will miss the stranger who took her hand and brought her somewhere new that damn cold night.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Life of an Excused Person Part 2
Well, it's the same as always. Hmm... I should be correcting that. Actually, everything is new! After knowing we top the elimination test then I got high on some of the PT considering the days I attended classes and now, I was shocked to see my card to be so far from how I started the year. Well, everyone got high anyway and so I'm happy for everyone.
Actually, the part two of this is about me and my best friend, Tenten. I was sad to hear that Blezz wasn't included but that's life. Anyway, we had been gone right after the RAT where I felt being an Oxygen for a week with my sister (although in real life we're not sisters) Dianne and my mother (although we all know she's not) Mafi. Well, I couldn't forget the way they accepted me and how they made me enoyed so much with them.
Ehem! Where was I? I was getting farther and farther from the topic. Haha! Though I am more pressured and nervous, I am actually more comfortable and expressive this days. Well, I didn't expect that I would be too casual with this entry but I love typing today, naturally.
It's about 2 weeks we're not in the class and on Thursday, we'll have the contest. To add more pressure, the next week, we'll have the PT! Well, those things are the ones making life exciting. (perhaps I have to prove it first to myself!)
I just want to say good luck to everyone for the excitement we each feel for our lives! Enjoy!
Actually, the part two of this is about me and my best friend, Tenten. I was sad to hear that Blezz wasn't included but that's life. Anyway, we had been gone right after the RAT where I felt being an Oxygen for a week with my sister (although in real life we're not sisters) Dianne and my mother (although we all know she's not) Mafi. Well, I couldn't forget the way they accepted me and how they made me enoyed so much with them.
Ehem! Where was I? I was getting farther and farther from the topic. Haha! Though I am more pressured and nervous, I am actually more comfortable and expressive this days. Well, I didn't expect that I would be too casual with this entry but I love typing today, naturally.
It's about 2 weeks we're not in the class and on Thursday, we'll have the contest. To add more pressure, the next week, we'll have the PT! Well, those things are the ones making life exciting. (perhaps I have to prove it first to myself!)
I just want to say good luck to everyone for the excitement we each feel for our lives! Enjoy!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
New Year, Newly Entered School and Newly Excused
This is my first week in school. Well, not exactly, since I was excused for the Math competition. We had only four days left and so the Friday comes. Sadly, I had fever so I am son feeling so well. At least, Tenten, Blez and I managed to go be 1st overall for the third year. I haven't attended classes the next week because of my fever so I got back to class 2 days before the test. I want to repeat that again, TWO DAYS BEFORE THE TEST WITHOUT KNOWING ANYTHING!!!
Well, actually, my first class day is already the long test in Analytic Geometry. It's not that harsh. No, no, NO! Well, I seriously, I don't know what to answer in most of the subjects. I'm over.
Well, now I'm back after the PT. I was sad because Blezz cannot join anymore. They even called it team if it's like that. Whew! Life's so hard!
Well, actually, my first class day is already the long test in Analytic Geometry. It's not that harsh. No, no, NO! Well, I seriously, I don't know what to answer in most of the subjects. I'm over.
Well, now I'm back after the PT. I was sad because Blezz cannot join anymore. They even called it team if it's like that. Whew! Life's so hard!
Super Grand Slam
Well, I've been busy this vacation. I have tons of assignment and I have to review for MTAP. Well, I also had quality time with my clan. On the 24th, I spent my days at my father's side family because it's my granpa's birthday. We stayed there for 5 days. I had fun with my cousins especially those from Bulacan.
Then, we had a very happy new year at our house with my family and that's what we do every year though now, my father doesn't anymore buy firecrackers so I guess we were lucky to have our fingers complete. Well, after that, nothing more can replace eating delicious foods. Then, the next day, I had my haircut. I hate it. The only thing I like about it is I spent quality time with my sister which happen only one every blue moon.
Well, it didn't stop there. My relatives at my mother side suprised everyone. They went to our house and we see each other far rarer than spending quality time with my sister. Their reason was my mother needs a visit since she came from the hospital recently. And the one incharge having the 10 siblings of my mother and having my grandma is Tita Gai. We as usual, ate yummy foods and everything was so easy to finish. You can actually count seconds before the 2 gallons of ice cream disappear. Well, we are many anyway, about 40, I guess.
Everything has to end. And so the smiles turned over to something else sooner when we heard they are going home. We had a prayer before they go. At least, I am happy to see my cousins of the same batch and my aunts and also my only niece.
No doubt, the last part of this is about the end of everything but also the start of a new year to me, new hope for me and new everything.
Then, we had a very happy new year at our house with my family and that's what we do every year though now, my father doesn't anymore buy firecrackers so I guess we were lucky to have our fingers complete. Well, after that, nothing more can replace eating delicious foods. Then, the next day, I had my haircut. I hate it. The only thing I like about it is I spent quality time with my sister which happen only one every blue moon.
Well, it didn't stop there. My relatives at my mother side suprised everyone. They went to our house and we see each other far rarer than spending quality time with my sister. Their reason was my mother needs a visit since she came from the hospital recently. And the one incharge having the 10 siblings of my mother and having my grandma is Tita Gai. We as usual, ate yummy foods and everything was so easy to finish. You can actually count seconds before the 2 gallons of ice cream disappear. Well, we are many anyway, about 40, I guess.
Everything has to end. And so the smiles turned over to something else sooner when we heard they are going home. We had a prayer before they go. At least, I am happy to see my cousins of the same batch and my aunts and also my only niece.
No doubt, the last part of this is about the end of everything but also the start of a new year to me, new hope for me and new everything.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Classes Ends! Vacation Starts Today!
Well, the title said it all.
We had all the excitement today. We had as usual, a Christmas program in the morning and batch party afternoon. Our section has the biggest trip. We had a t-shirt and we prepared a number, actually, a continuation of the last year's show. We had Betty and Armando, Spice Boys, and everyone else, live! And we didn't have enough time to practice! We had our games but we cut it off soon because we became bored of it and so the bands of the batch continued the show.
After that, we ate our food and well, we were really hungry. We sang together on a karaoke though our voices were louder than the microphone. I had lots of fun with the other years. Well, many gave gifts! I was sad because I'm broke and I can't give everyone. Well, there is one gift I was shocked to receive, a bracelet from a friend whom I haven't talked for a while. No doubt, I missed him so much and there was so fight nor reason for us not to talk at all. He was gone before I can say "thanks." I was too late, I guess but I manage to tell him later on.
Well, I guess I became tired when our section had picture taking. I wasn't in the pictures because I went away for a while. And when we are called on the line, I stayed at the back first. I wasn't happy when everyone I sav was happy but there was no reason to be that way. When someone went to me and told me what am I doing alone at the back, I smiled and he cheered me up in that simple way. Actually, I wasn't cheered simply. In fact, I was so happy and that's a memory for me to remember. Well, if only he knew how much that meant to me.
And that's how my day became complete at my last day of school. Well, I'm expected to go back the next day for GSP so technically, it's not the last day of school. Haha! Well, the vacation anyway is not long enough for me to miss everyone so much but surely, I will.
We had all the excitement today. We had as usual, a Christmas program in the morning and batch party afternoon. Our section has the biggest trip. We had a t-shirt and we prepared a number, actually, a continuation of the last year's show. We had Betty and Armando, Spice Boys, and everyone else, live! And we didn't have enough time to practice! We had our games but we cut it off soon because we became bored of it and so the bands of the batch continued the show.
After that, we ate our food and well, we were really hungry. We sang together on a karaoke though our voices were louder than the microphone. I had lots of fun with the other years. Well, many gave gifts! I was sad because I'm broke and I can't give everyone. Well, there is one gift I was shocked to receive, a bracelet from a friend whom I haven't talked for a while. No doubt, I missed him so much and there was so fight nor reason for us not to talk at all. He was gone before I can say "thanks." I was too late, I guess but I manage to tell him later on.
Well, I guess I became tired when our section had picture taking. I wasn't in the pictures because I went away for a while. And when we are called on the line, I stayed at the back first. I wasn't happy when everyone I sav was happy but there was no reason to be that way. When someone went to me and told me what am I doing alone at the back, I smiled and he cheered me up in that simple way. Actually, I wasn't cheered simply. In fact, I was so happy and that's a memory for me to remember. Well, if only he knew how much that meant to me.
And that's how my day became complete at my last day of school. Well, I'm expected to go back the next day for GSP so technically, it's not the last day of school. Haha! Well, the vacation anyway is not long enough for me to miss everyone so much but surely, I will.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
What If....
Weeks past and her condition was getting worse. She have been back and forth the house and the hospital bed but there were no change.
Well, December 11 came and Mom gave me money to treat my friends since this time, we can't celebrate at home. Well, it was more than enough but I prefer not to spend it. Instead, I spent my own money. I'd rather save it for next week's expenses so I don't have to bother Mom or Dad about it too much.
About my day, almost no one knows in our room about it except Tenten and Chala, I thought. Until such time when Kuya Shaider pass the window and shouted, "happy birthday!" My classmates looked at me and wondered, "is it my birthday?" Well, it doesn,t matter. The point is that lunch I ate with my friends in Nitrogen and Oxygen and we all went to Seven Eleven, my treat. When I got back from munching a lot, I received a gift from Tenten and Maikka. Although they never forget giving a gift, I was always surprised to received one, especially Maikka when she did not even greeted me and even gave me a letter about me greeting her last on her birthday. I never thought she would not forget that.
When I got home, I was so happy. It was better than any gift and better than any birthday celebration. It was my Mom standing in front of me. She badly wanted to get out from the hospital. Our maid even said that even if Mom was in the hospital, she was always thinking of what we will eat, how are we, what should we have for my birthday rather than take the time to rest. Well, that was expected from her but I think she needs to take more rest since she is not well enough to work.
Well, we aare able to go to church on our Thanksgiving Day and I was literally thankful about it. But it was not for long, Mom was badly trembling the next days. The worst time, we called Dad and he said she is to be brought to another hospital, a better one. She was brought to La Salle and stayed again on hospital bed. I don't like to see Mom to react like that in front of me. I don't want to see her trembling and suffering and I understand she often feel that way. But I also don't want her to see me feeling bad for her. I don't want her to see me cry if she's in bad condition. But I want to comfort her and say "everything will be alright, Ma!"
Seriously, obviously, directly and honestly, I am afraid to lose or even to be away from my Mom. I always distract myself whenever I come to think of all of those "what if" statements. I always get so emotional by my fears of possibilities. Well, I can't avoid them even if I distract myself sometimes because there are times that signs show that they are possible and I don't like it at all.
I heard from the others that she had typhoid fever but if it's true, I don't think it's severe since typhoid fever as I know it is highly communicable but the doctors still let visitors on her room.
More and more days pass and I can't anymore take the time without her and worrying about her until such time a news came.
Mom can go home at last! She still needs a little recovery but I can see she's better the last time I've seen her and I miss her so much now. She has been better each day until such time she reached her full recovery. We are all so thankful.
Well, December 11 came and Mom gave me money to treat my friends since this time, we can't celebrate at home. Well, it was more than enough but I prefer not to spend it. Instead, I spent my own money. I'd rather save it for next week's expenses so I don't have to bother Mom or Dad about it too much.
About my day, almost no one knows in our room about it except Tenten and Chala, I thought. Until such time when Kuya Shaider pass the window and shouted, "happy birthday!" My classmates looked at me and wondered, "is it my birthday?" Well, it doesn,t matter. The point is that lunch I ate with my friends in Nitrogen and Oxygen and we all went to Seven Eleven, my treat. When I got back from munching a lot, I received a gift from Tenten and Maikka. Although they never forget giving a gift, I was always surprised to received one, especially Maikka when she did not even greeted me and even gave me a letter about me greeting her last on her birthday. I never thought she would not forget that.
When I got home, I was so happy. It was better than any gift and better than any birthday celebration. It was my Mom standing in front of me. She badly wanted to get out from the hospital. Our maid even said that even if Mom was in the hospital, she was always thinking of what we will eat, how are we, what should we have for my birthday rather than take the time to rest. Well, that was expected from her but I think she needs to take more rest since she is not well enough to work.
Well, we aare able to go to church on our Thanksgiving Day and I was literally thankful about it. But it was not for long, Mom was badly trembling the next days. The worst time, we called Dad and he said she is to be brought to another hospital, a better one. She was brought to La Salle and stayed again on hospital bed. I don't like to see Mom to react like that in front of me. I don't want to see her trembling and suffering and I understand she often feel that way. But I also don't want her to see me feeling bad for her. I don't want her to see me cry if she's in bad condition. But I want to comfort her and say "everything will be alright, Ma!"
Seriously, obviously, directly and honestly, I am afraid to lose or even to be away from my Mom. I always distract myself whenever I come to think of all of those "what if" statements. I always get so emotional by my fears of possibilities. Well, I can't avoid them even if I distract myself sometimes because there are times that signs show that they are possible and I don't like it at all.
I heard from the others that she had typhoid fever but if it's true, I don't think it's severe since typhoid fever as I know it is highly communicable but the doctors still let visitors on her room.
More and more days pass and I can't anymore take the time without her and worrying about her until such time a news came.
Mom can go home at last! She still needs a little recovery but I can see she's better the last time I've seen her and I miss her so much now. She has been better each day until such time she reached her full recovery. We are all so thankful.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Midnight Sun
No! It's not the Twilight version of Edward Cullen's perspective. It's a movie released in early 2000, I think 2001. It's actually a Japanese film also called "Taiyou no Uta" starring my favourite Japanese singer, Yui!
Well, I came to cross over it and I found it interesting so I watched it in the middle of the night in the net. It was about a girl named Kaoru who has XP, an illness of the skin that make it sensitive to UV rays of the sun. She only comes out at night to play her composed songs on the streets. She died at the end but she managed to have an album. It's so nice! I was tearing alone in the living room looking like a silly girl crying in the middle of the night.
Well, I tried to recommend it to my friends but they are not yet checking it out. Maybe they won't find it as nice as how I found it but for me, it's good.
Actually, I want to recommend it to you as well. Look for it! I hope you like it too!
Well, I came to cross over it and I found it interesting so I watched it in the middle of the night in the net. It was about a girl named Kaoru who has XP, an illness of the skin that make it sensitive to UV rays of the sun. She only comes out at night to play her composed songs on the streets. She died at the end but she managed to have an album. It's so nice! I was tearing alone in the living room looking like a silly girl crying in the middle of the night.
Well, I tried to recommend it to my friends but they are not yet checking it out. Maybe they won't find it as nice as how I found it but for me, it's good.
Actually, I want to recommend it to you as well. Look for it! I hope you like it too!
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