Greed

Hi blog!

It seems that I have nowhere to go but here. I really want to talk to someone about things but I'm too scared that I might go a little overboard.

You see, it's always been about me. I talk and talk and I just want someone to listen. I don't ask for advice because I know it won't work. In the end, I'll do what I want. What do I want anyway? Everything! Yes, I just realized that. At first, I thought I just can't judge right or weigh options, but really, I just want to have it all.

I realized that I'm afraid to lose anything, and to change anything because they have risk? The other day, we were in class talking about opportunity cost and I was like, I don't want to sacrifice anything. I want to gain everything and endure not to lose any as much as I can.

I think it's normal. We humans are greedy creatures. Babies cry if you don't give them the toy or food, whichever they want. It's nature, that's why we cannot eliminate it. I mean, greed plays a big role in world destruction. We just get enough of anything. When we obtain something, we want more. In short, we want everything.

Dreaming is being greedy without action. We just put light along with it to look good. Even making friends might be greedy. I mean, look, you make friends for yourself. Even if you say it's for them, you get that satisfaction. We look at them in the eye and see our reflection, and that's when we determine if we like them, if we see ourselves in their eyes.

Nevermind that. I mean, I didn't mean to say those things. I just really want to share to you how much things I want to have and I can't wait to have. Others, I know I can never obtain, and it kills me inside. Give me love! money! wisdom! Oh! Give me some more love! I thought what I only need is someone to understand me but the truth, not. If everyone is selfish enough, no one can ever understand the other because we are all busy thinking of ourselves and what we want.

It' a lonesome fight for everyone!