ME

"Who are you?"

One of the most common questions in the world, yet, whenever I am asked, I can't find the right answer. It is really hard to describe myself. Well, I am not sure if I really know myself. But then, as time pass by, as I try to meet more people, as I try to take more risks, I learn a little bit more about me. And for this, I'm going to describe the current me, what I have been through and what I know of myself so far.

Honestly, the last few days went really, really tough for me. Yeah. I thought I know myself well. I was at the peak of everything in life. I was really, really confident because I know, I'm fighting for something that I have my heart onto. Until, BOOM! All I've done has blown to smithereens. I thought I lost everything. I thought I was lost. I took risks and done things I've never done before and it felt like jumping off a cliff headfirst.

From far away, I want to laugh at myself for sometimes being such a fool. I should know, we can't please everyone. I should know, no other people can really know how you truly feel except for yourself. And I guess, that is one of the qualities we alone know about ourselves: how we feel at the moment.

Others may know things about you that you yourself didn't know but then, it is still you. But feelings are within, and it points us to who we really are. Though, it change through time and sometimes, being forgotten as well. And at that moment, I was sad, hurt and tired. I might have lost my direction.

Until now, I haven't fully recovered from all the things that happened to me recently. What have I done? Oh, well. I can't stay falling apart forever, anyway. That is why I took summer classes: to look for myself. I want to find alternatives, to look for other interest and to somewhat ease the pain.

You might find this quite weird but truly, all I want is to share a part of me and I thought, by sharing how I feel at the moment will help you know who I am. And i thought, that is priceless.

Knowing one's self is an endless process. It is a continuous search of identity. I have been in this journey for a while. And I won't stop as long as I believe there is hope. There is hope as long as I am alive. Yeah, I know I lost my way for a while, but I know, I going back up and find my track.