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I asked, and she kept telling me.

"The lingering question kept me up, 2 AM, who do you love?" - Enchanted

"It's 2AM, feeling like I just lost a friend. Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me." - Breathe

"It's 2AM and I'm cursing your name. I'm so in love that I acted insane" - The Way I Loved You

"I remember that fight, 2:30 AM" - Mine

"Take me back to the creek beds we turned up, 2 AM, riding in your truck, and all I need is you next to me." - Mary's Song

"I still remember the look on your face, lit through the darkness at 1:58, the words that you whispered for just us to know, you told me you loved me so why did you go away?" - Last Kiss

"2 AM, here we are, see your face, hear my voice in the dark" - I Wish You Would

She might be right.

Monostable Multivibrator

also known as one-shot or single-swing multivibrator
it has a single stable state
one side is normally on that is forced to temporarily turn off
and the other is normally off that is forced to temporarily turn on
thus, a quasi-stable state is generated
quasi-stable, because it only lasts for a brief, predetermined period of time
the force dies down and everything will go back to the stable state
and if the next trigger comes, it will be forced to be in quasi-stable state again
and the cycle repeats.


and I think, the current condition is in stable state
where in what's supposedly on is on
and what's supposedly off is off
or so I thought
because from afar, I can't tell the difference in states
let us assume that it is like that for the moment
and that there's currently not enough force to change state
either that or it just recently died down
I really don't know
will it stay this way?
I'm not sure when will the next trigger come or will it.

At 2 AM

At 2 AM,
I was thinking,
Thinking of rainbows,
clouds, stars, sunsets
I was thinking about the sky
and I felt excited,
And then, I thought of walls,
bricks, roofs, doors,
I thought of home
and then, I felt warm.

You, Me, Us

I don't miss you like I 'miss' you
like I've never seen you for a long while
like you're living beyond several seas
because you're just there with the reach of the hand
you're there at the range of my gaze

Definitely I don't 'miss' me as far as I know
like someone who has been lost and searching
like I've been someone I'm not
because I've been in my best lately, striving, believing
and for the first time, I think I know what I want

I miss us, clearly I miss us
I don't know if 'miss' is the best fitting word
to describe something I'm not sure if I really did obtain
but clearly, I'm longing for something
not just about you, not just about me, but us

Somewhere Not Over the Rainbow

"Maselang bahaghagi sa aking isipan, wag kang mabahala, di kita malilimutan, paglipas ng ulan ay mapapangiti ang araw, wag sana mawala ang..."

Nabihag akong muli ng bahaghari.

Sa tinagal-tagal na panahon, sa dinami-dami ko nang nasabi sa blog na ito in the past, I am about to say the same thing.

Ikaw nanaman. Heto nanaman. Hindi na ako makaalis sa landas mo. Para akong isang preso na willing bumalik sa kanyang selda nang walang pumipilit.

Isa yan sa madami kong narealize kagabi.

Sorry, ang gulo gulo ko kamakailan. Hanggang ngayon hindi ako settled. Tinatanggap ko na lang yung fact as of the moment na leaning ako towards you rather than yung alam ng madami.

Again, go with the flow. No pressure. Enjoy what we have. Ewan ko. Ito na yata iyong pinakamalapit na place na narating ko patungo sa'yo. Kaya, hindi ko maiwasan malet go kasi ito yung gusto makamit ng past self ko. Hi past self, I'm doing fine. I'll try not to screw things up. Though, ang hirap.

Bahala na. Long way to go pa ito. Madami pang magaganap. Kahit itong current self ko, magiging future past self  din ng future self ko. Hi future self, hindi ko mapredict kung ano gusto mo pero inaasa ko na sa iyo to. Good luck!