Right now.....errr. i really don't know where the hell i am. Im sort of confused of what to do, when im trying to make decisions, important people join in to stop me and i find things a little contradicting. Well im in serious business here but still i cant accept it because i really dont deserve it.
Well, i don't know what to do now. I don't know which way to go either. My best friend is at some place far away. Haha, just when i need her the most but of course im happy for her as well.
Then, this guy, i don't know the hell with him. He's ruining my life. If he wants to stay with me i want him to change for the better and not drag me to him for worse because i know to myself that i can live without him though i also know it will really hurt badly.
Starting yesterday, until tomorrow, i dont want to talk to him to test myself and also be able to wind up a little. I wanna hear other's voice not just his. he's no everything darn. Then, i thought, im feeling better. I just thought I'm already realizing who is me. But then, my other best pal gave me a sign of what she noticed of me. She won't tell a lie to me i know.
Have i really change for worse if all that i aim is for the better?
Am i still me?
I really don't know myself anymore. . .
